Wow, today is rough, I caught myself barely able to keep my eyes open on the drive in (BAD - I know).
Thanks for all your comments, as always they mean so much to me.
I do think it's obvious I have CFS, but seeing this infectious disease control doc will accomplish several things (1) make my boss happy, (2) make sure nothing else is going on (3) make sure nothing else is complicating my CFS.
However, I have to admit that I feel a bit lead around at the moment. It seems that now I'm pushing myself because my boss is being so nice and getting me in to see another doctor and because he gave me last week off. I asked my immediate supervisor yesterday (not the same boss) - to reduce my pay to what I'm actually working so that I can stop burning up all my vacation and sick time to make up my hours and was told "that's not necessary at this point". I tried to explain that I am very afraid that I won't have any "time" left if I need an extended break or even if I just crash and need a week off again - apparently it's "still not necessary at this point".
My husband is flying high on the thought that this new doctor is going to find out what is going on with me and be able to "fix" me - this all feels like unfortunately a recipe for disaster.
All I know is that I can't do this much longer and we all know it (at least all of us here - LOL), I can't keep pushing, I need to stop.
I'm taking it one day at a time, hopefully with my eyes open at least some of the time.